Forever and a Day...

It feels like it's been far too long since I've blogged.

My summer got super boring over the last few weeks. I mainly work, go to the gym, and play with my friends. <---- okay so that sounds like a pretty good time to me. Carrie and I have had a lot of fun lately. I've got pictures to prove it. I'd share all the insane things we've done. But. for some reason no one seems to think the things we think are funny, are as funny as we think they are. <-- did that make sense?

I'm not going to play catch up. Just know I've had the best summer, filled with the best people, I've made some the best memories, met one of the most amazing people(s) ever. I'm sad to see it go. But. I am excited for the future. For the endless possibilities to come, and relationships to grow. I've let go of some people. I'm finally ready to move on from last summer. Ouch. I needed to happen.

I've stepped outside my comfort zone a lot this summer. I've become friends with people I never would have thought I would have. I've made some big changes, I'm still making some even bigger changes. I've seen blessings come into my life that wouldn't have come unless I stepped outside the norm. I'm so grateful for my blessings. For my family, and for my friends.

I just got super emotional writing this. And. I'm not exactly sure why. I've been thru a lot lately. I've been pretty grumpy the last few weeks, mingled with some of the happiest times. And. I've finally realized that I needed to snap out of it. I attribute the happy times to some very amazing individuals, and my grumpy times to those same people(but only because they're gone) Rude.

So, I suck at keeping secrets. It's true. Don't tell me anything. Actually. That's not true at all. I'm good at keeping important secrets that aren't bout me. I've recently applied for a job. A job that if I get it, I'll be doing a lot more travelling. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

I get weekly emails from a good friend of mine, and at the end of every email he always asks me to tell him something good that happened to me this week.

So. Tell me something good that's happened to you this week?

xo.

I love my life..

Last week I had a mini(ok MAJOR melt down) I was not okay.

I hated my life. Nothing was going right. Work was stressful, I wasn't going to the gym enough, I wasn't eating properly and well... the boy I like left. Shoot. = crappy life for a single Mormon girl.

I knew that work was going to be stressful this summer, I CHOSE to eat unhealthy, and not go to the gym as much, and well I knew this boy would eventually leave for a while, but I still choose to hang out with him all summer. So why was I hating the world for the things that I had done to myself?

I wish I had some HUGE epiphany to share. But I don't. I sulked for a few days, I hid in my room under my covers(okay not under-it was super hot last week) I had a few cries with Carrie, and had a MAJOR pity party where I was the guest of honor. Then. I got sick and tired of being sad and grumpy. So I stopped. It's amazing the difference your attitude can make when you choose to change it :) <--- I know you're probably thinking "Wow, it took this chick 25 years to figure that out." Yep. and I'll probably forget it a time or two before I die and have to learn it all over again.

I'm a goals kind of girl. I need to constantly be working on something or else I feel like I have ZERO substance. I'm always bouncing from one project, or thing to the next. All throughout the summer I was working on creating all these fun ideas to do with said boy, I was wrapped up in a summer fling.In highschool I always had basketball... In college I always had home work. In the last 3 years I'd always had a pretty intense calling that kept me busy. This last year I've been working on rehabbing my knee. Then once all those distractions were gone I started hating life.

So. Every Monday morning I am going to make weekly goals for the upcoming week. <--- I'm also making rewards for myself...what fun is a chore/goal without a reward in the end...

This weeks goals:

-Prepare all of my meals for the upcoming week so I don't grab junk/fast food
-burn 1200cals/day @ the gym (2ish hours of lifting, spin, cardio)
-Put away all of my folded laundry
-Go to bed @ 10:30
-Wake up @ 6:30
-Meet someone new
-Go to institute
-Take 3 spin classes this week.
-Do something nice for someone.
-Learn to like my new calling-more on that later.
-Be HAPPY.
-Start p90x again.
-Play with my niece as much as possible

What are some of your goals for this week.

xo.
L.

Hello World...

This summer has gone by WAAAAAAAY too fast.
and I'm not happy about it.

I've been trying to find a little bit more balance in my life. Whoops. That's not going so well. I'm either King Hermit, or Queen Bee <--- not sure how that works. Last week I was a little gym rat and I loved it. But subsequently I missed out on a lot of really fun things that happened this week. The week before I went to the gym once, for an hour and had the most BESTEST week ever(I fully realize that is not a proper sentence and I'm okay with that) Annnnnnyways. I'm trying this new thing where I'm going to find balance. I'm going to go to the gym, and I'm going to have a social life all at the same time.

How does this work? can someone actually please explain it to me? I get side tracked at the gym and I'm there for like 2+ hours a night. By the time I get home, shower and get ready to go out I'm tired and need to go to bed. whoops. Old lady walking. geez.

Well. Here's what I've come up with. Two-a-days. *yikes* I'm going to work out on my lunch break at work so that I have less to do after work. Hey! I'll take the good(social life during the week) with the bad(being sweaty for the last few hours of my day). Compromise. Wow. I'm doing it. HA.

Let's see how long that lasts for? Anyone wanna shout out a guess... I'm guessing 3 days!

AND. I'm either super good with healthy eating, or super horrible. This weekend was more along the lines of HIDEOUS. I ate so bad. I don't think there was a single vegetable in my diet for 48 hours. My mom would be so proud. Last week I was *so* good. No processed carbs/ food period. All healthy. My stomach/body is screaming for some apples and carrots right now. Sorry to torture you body.

Does anyone have any good cookbooks they can recommend to me? Good clean healthy recipes that take little to no time to prepare? I need to shake things up.

P.S-- I've been on a smoothie kick lately. Mmmm breakfast smoothies. Best ever. So filling.

xo.

L.

I'm back....

Heeeyooo!

I took a little blogging hiatus. Not because I haven't been having fun, or that I've hated my blogging buddies..mainly due to the fact that I haven't had internet in a long time. So I have to blog at work. So I'll probably be on another little hiatus until the next time I decide to come to the library at work. Sorry.

I've had so much fun the last couple weeks. I eluded to being secretive last post. I think mainly just to let "those" people who read my blog and have seen me being secretive know that I was being super shady and I know they know but I still won't tell them what's going on. <---- make sense. Sorry. But it's kind of fun.

.woman of mystery.

I am seriously loving life right now. I don't want to jinx it. But this summer has been a good one. Especially the last 6 weeks, the next 18 will be rough! I have so many pictures I want to post but I can't find my camera cord, so once Carrie and Carol post pictures of the Stamps game, and the pictures from our date nights, and the Inglewood look out I'll be sure to post them too.

I haven't been getting much sleep lately, I haven't been eating super healthy, and my gym attendance has severely decreased over the last 3 weeks...but honestly. Who cares I've been having a blast. Staying out way too late, going on freezie dates, dinners, late night arm tickles, back scratches and head massages... I need to upload a picture of the the beautiful city I live in I took Tuesday night from the Inglewood look out. It's amazing <--- once you see it you'll know why I am lovin' life so much.

I've learned one thing about myself over the last month and a half.

. I. Am. Easily. Distracted.

The last 3 days at the gym have been hard. My body isn't use to my workouts anymore. But it will.. I also have a new trainer. He's amazing. We had a fantastic little chat last night. He knows what I want, and when I want it. So every time he makes me do box jumps. I will know he's doing it to help me get to where I want to be by the time I want to be there! I went to a nutrition class last night put on my by good friend Celine. Most of it was review...and boy did I need it. I didn't realize until last night how off my eating has been. Time to jump back on the bandwagon pronto.

I hope all you lovers out there are lovin' life as much as I am.

xo.

L.