It's been raining here.... for like a week. Which means my mood has been down for like a week.(except for this weekend.I.had.a.fantastic.weekend.)
I hate being 'damp' you know the whole-half dry-half wet thing. It's by far the worst, and most uncomfortable feeling on.the.face.of.the.earth.
I've been staying up way too late. Eating foods way to bad for me.Hanging out with some pretty awesome people.doing some pretty awesome things. It's been fun. But the lack of sleep mixed together with the whole hatred for the damp feeling has left me grumpy for the better part of my days lately.
Usually the gym get's me out of whatever funk I'm in. Like really. A boy breaks up with me. I cry for 5 minutes then hit the gym, and I'm fine an hour later. So I hit the gym after my 3 day hiatus(which nearly killed me-It took all my strength to relax.) and it was nothing but a big.fat.disappointment. My legs won't run. I complained to TrainerBoy. I threatened to throw up-then almost did.
Note:: Never cry wolf.
The one thing that use to de-stress me--is now the one thing that stresses me out more than anything. I've left the gym more times in the last 10 days more frustrated than before I got there.
I was trying to explain to someone I'm just getting to know about my personality. The TYPE A Personality. I can't/won't do things half way. I'm either good at it and I love it, or I'm bad at it and I don't do it. It's a pride thing. My poor little(BIG)ego gets bruised easily. There is nothing MORE frustrating to me that not being able to do something I use to be able to do.
His response. ".Buck.it.up.kid."
.Buck it up kid.
Hmm... noted. Bucking up. I like a person who can be blunt with me. I think we'll be good friends.
This week I'm not going to focus on the things I can't do, and I'm going to focus on the things I can do. Like I can do 90lbs squats 4 sets of 15 reps. I can spin. I can do 90lb tricep extensions.
I can't change the circumstances I'm put in, but I CAN change my attitude about my circumstances.
So. Instead of being upset about the rain, I'm going to go puddle jumping(walking)
You must take personal responsibility. You cannot change the circumstances, the seasons, or the wind, but you can change yourself. That is something you have charge of.