Curve Ball....

-I'd lie: If I said I knew what I was doing with my life.

Honestly, I have no idea what I am doing. Where I am going. Or, how I'm going to get there.

-I'd lie: If I said I didn't wish I was 16 again playing ball, living in my parents house, eating their food without a care in the world.

Honestly, I wish I didn't spend my teenage years wishing I could grow up. Only, to be grown up and wish I could go back.

-I'd lie: If I said I wasn't looking at housing for the winter in Calgary {Curve ball right}

Honestly, Provo in January isn't feeling right for me. Provo feels right. Timing is off.

-I'd lie: If I said I wasn't absolutely terrified of risk-taking. However, I'm trying to change that.

Honestly, being outside of my comfort zone makes me want to cry. I haven't been outside my zone in 5 years. I feel like that's hindered me.

-I'd lie: If I said I feel like I haven't lost myself.

Honestly, I don't know who I am anymore.

-I'd lie: If I said I was excited about moving to Provo {I get anxiety. Really. I do.}

Honestly, It freaks me out. Am I going to have friends, Will I go on dates, Will I be good at school.

-I'd lie: If I said I didn't feel the Lords hand in my life.

Honestly, I know that I've been guided in EVERY aspect of my life.



I'd lie: If I said I didn't want to travel: From NYC all the way to L.A

Honestly, If I choose not to go to school until Sept- I'll be spending my time finding myself thru travel.

I'd lie: If I said I didn't want to study abroad

Honestly, I've FINALLYrealized if I want happy memories for my yesterday- I need to make the most of todays.

I've always thought of my life as a book. Each chapter has been full of fun, drama, tears, trials and love and everything in between. I'm not exactly sure when this chapter will end. It's still unwritten. I am excited to fill the pages of my book called Life.

xo.