I realize there was never an official part 1 to my thoughts.
I worked out last night. Everytime I go to the gym it reminds me of WHY I love it so much. I see so many people that I know at the gym. So many people I see tons and feel like I should know them but don't. Maybe I should get to know them. Especially the one tall guy who kept walking past my bike after each rep. He was hot.
I hurt my knee trying to play volleyball Monday.
I wish that my mind wasn't so far ahead of my knee. I feel like I can do things, so I do. Lately they've been failing miserably.
I feel like a Horse that broke it's leg. I should just be shot cause I can't sit still long enough to let it heal. **Yes I just referred to myself as a horse. FML.
I've come to the conclusion that there is NO way I can get out of having surgery now. Like none. My knee buckles in my brace.
I went to the mall Saturday. We were there for 5 hours and all I bought was a book. I'm still paying for that. My legs are so sore.
I went tanning today. I looked at my leg and it's all deformed from the massive amounts of muscle loss. I took a picture of it on my phone. It's nasty or I'd post it.
I'm so excited for Christmas.
I haven't worked a full work week since the end of July.
The only thing that has got me thru the last 4 months are the super sweet goals I've made for 2011. Dive Instructing, Spin Instructing, Trip to the Bahamas, Reffing Certificate, Races I'm going to run, Triathlons I'm going to compete in. I'm so stoked.
Every since I found out I was meeting with my surgeon next week I've been planning on having my surgery around Christmas time. I was driving home from work today and realized I might not be having surgery for a long time.
I realized how depressed I'm going to be if I don't get surgery soon. It's already been long enough.
I need to stop having things happen to me that I can blame other things on.
I realized after watching season 1 and 2 of 90210 in under a week that I hate that the 3rd season is on right now. I don't like having to wait a week for each new episode.
I decided I'm starting to fall out of love with OTH :( It's just not practical anymore. Sometimes you just need to end a good thing when it's still good.
I love my family. I hate family drama. Especially extended family drama. I am staying out of this fight.
I am still really bratty.
I like things to go my way, when they don't I act like life is over. I need to learn to go with the flow.
I'm jealous Ashley is moving to the Bahamas in a week. I will be there soon enough.
I'm going to the gym tonight for a late night workout. I'm so happy I don't have to work tomorrow. YAY!
I'm excited for lunch with Kait, and my gym date tomorrow.