My last few blog posts have been super downers. Ugh. I hate it when I am a downer. But I hate reading blogs where everyone it's all happy times and groovy tunes.
It's not realistic. I am glad I am able to share a few of my thoughts. And get some good feedback. Thank you.
I needed today. I needed to sit in sacrament meeting and read my patriarchal blessing. I needed to read my scriptures. I am sorry I didn't listen to the talks. But the spirit spoke to me. The spirit made me feel better. The spirit testified to me of a few different things that I really needed to hear. It was hard to hear. It was hard to come to terms with. But. I know that if I can push past this trial, I will end up happier than I could ever expect.
I need to keep myself busy right now. I need to constantly be learning and progressing.
I never thought that I would be 26 and virtually starting over. *I still have my job, I still have my house. I still have all that* I just feel like I am meant for so much more. And. Instead of waiting for it to fall in my lap. I am going to go out and make something of my life.
This is hard for me. Because. I am the MOST indecisive person I have ever met.
One minute I want to become a Nurse Practitioner. The next day I want to be an Astronaut. Today I want to get a degree in Hospital Management.
Faith can not reside where fear is.
I am trying to be fearless. One step at a time.